Euphoria, starting that thread here, is that okay? If not, I can delete it.
On the invisibility thing, I couldn't believe today...the person who has worked at this apartment complex as long as I've been here, that I've talked to, had no idea who I was. She knew I was familiar, but didn't KNOW exactly who I was. It was the strangest thing. I attribute it to my hair being longer than usual. Lots of other things, I suppose, I don't get all dolled up anymore either.
But I've talked to her so many times. About her breast cancer and about various managers who've been here, and all kinds of things. Today, I was a familiar stranger.
And the secrets thing. Do you get that online too? Because I do. People that tell you their "secrets" and then disappear. I don't quite understand that. I even wrote a "poem" about it, I wonder if I still have a copy somewhere?
On the invisibility thing, I couldn't believe today...the person who has worked at this apartment complex as long as I've been here, that I've talked to, had no idea who I was. She knew I was familiar, but didn't KNOW exactly who I was. It was the strangest thing. I attribute it to my hair being longer than usual. Lots of other things, I suppose, I don't get all dolled up anymore either.
But I've talked to her so many times. About her breast cancer and about various managers who've been here, and all kinds of things. Today, I was a familiar stranger.
And the secrets thing. Do you get that online too? Because I do. People that tell you their "secrets" and then disappear. I don't quite understand that. I even wrote a "poem" about it, I wonder if I still have a copy somewhere?
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Re: Invisibility, secrets, etc...
Fri, February 2, 2007 - 8:29 PMHere's the poem, Euphoria:
Keeper of Secrets
It's me that you'll talk to
with anger and fear
expelling your demons
while calling me dear
I'm open always
Morning or night
to reach out and hold you
and feel you fight
I let you scream
as your claws draw blood
and out come your secrets
a momentous flood
I take them in
and hold them safe
while you scream bloody murder
to try to save face
I take the abuse
and take all the pain
freeing your heart
from a lifetime of shame
I stand there beaten,
broken, and blue
and hear you say
I'M NOT TALKING TO YOU
I watch you go
as many have done
and wait for the next one
they surely will come
In time perhaps
Your hatred will lessen
That good often comes
from a confession
Your spirit is lighter
it's burden transferred
to a strange lonely woman
who seems absurd
I work on my wounds
your pains, our sorrows,
always hoping for
a brighter tomorrow
I watch you afar
and see the man
who's forgotten
who I am
But I keep them safe
those secrets of yours
kept behind a million
locked doors
The Keeper of Secrets
cannot tell a lie
and will hold all your secrets
'til the day she dies
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Re: Invisibility, secrets, etc...
Sun, February 4, 2007 - 10:28 AMFar be it for me to say what anyone else can or can't post!
I seriously believe that when some people share a deeply personal secret they've never told anyone before that perhaps some kind of mental block goes up towards that person. Maybe it's a matter of having purged the painful information they must then purge the memory of the purge itself. Hence, all details of the encounter are forgotten, including the person it was shared with.
Yeah, I've found the same thing to happen online, too, as well as other online experiences that seem to be rather anomalous.
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Re: Invisibility, secrets, etc...
Sun, February 4, 2007 - 2:52 PMI wonder if that's why they have those confessionals in religious places, where you can't really see the person you're confessing to. So that the person can speak their secrets, and be forgiven, and carry a lighter load, but not resent the person that they told their secrets to.
When people tell you secrets, do those people seem to be so angry? It's like they're angry at me, while telling me whatever it is that they "have" to tell me. I guess I've felt that way too, being angry about the secret and directing that anger at the person I'm talking with.
Some people though seem to hold on to that anger and continue coming after the person who knows their secret. I'm not sure why. It's not like I can forget it, if the person keeps coming back and being in my face. If they go away, back to wherever they were before we ran into each other, then I do tend to forget.
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